Have you ever felt like God laid something on your heart and said "Go for it!"? This is the beginning of what I hope to be and incredible journey! I've been thinking about this a lot recently, and I feel like God is calling me to go to India for a year. The goal is to live/work in an orphanage. I'm not looking to do this because it's my idea. In fact, the idea totally terrifies me. I do however, feel like it is what God wants from me.
It's been difficult trying to wrap my head around going. Sometimes I feel like I'm making things up in my head. It's hard for me to interpret if I'm talking to myself, or if God is speaking to me. But then these doors keep opening, and I meet these awesome people and I can't mistake God's presence.
A few weeks ago I met Kumar. He's an incredible 21 year old from The University of Michigan, Ann Arbor. I met him at church of all places (go figure, right?). He has completed several missions trips in the last few years, and also went to India last summer for 2 months to film a documentary with some of his friends. I got to have dinner with him a few weeks ago to talk about his trip to India. We talked about his experiences, fundraising and the fact that he has christian family members in India. Isn't that amazing!?! He came into my life right as I was starting to seriously consider taking this journey.
I have a huge fear of the reactions I'm going to get when I tell my family members and friends that I am going to do this. I haven't finished college. My parents are quite angry with me, and I have a feeling that they will be less than excited about this idea. BUT, I've decided after living to please other people for the last 22 1/2 years, that if I want to do this and I feel like it is what God wants from me, I SHOULD. I am at a point in my life where I have nothing to tie me down. I'm single, don't have any kids, no "real" job to speak of. So WHY NOT?
So I don't exactly have it all figured out. BUT, I have a plan. Maybe it won't come together exactly as I hope, but at least I have a plan. This is more than I can normally say for myself. The plan is: Get passport, fundraise, pay off debt, fly to India, have the adventure of a lifetime. Sounds pretty good doesn't it? It may not be easy, but hey! What is?
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